it's a promise .

Boy , can we have a talk for a moment ?

I don’t know where to start .

But I know I should tell you this before it’s too late .

well , even tho ppl say “ better late than never “

but i have to say this .

 

since I saw you for the first time .

I thought we couldn’t be together .

Because u have her and I have him .

I thought you’d be my forever crush .

Ya , forever crush only . not more than that .

But then I had a chance .

To be with you  .

I was too scared to grab the chance .

I was too scared to make the first move .

It took about 3 years to build my courage .

You’re different .

And I don’t know why .

You make me speechless each time you smile at me .

On 23th march 2013 , we had a one-hour-conversation .

remember it ? on that time ? you being my companion .

i cried . with you .

You’re amazing .

Month by month , we talked , we sang , we joked .

It was my happiest moment in my life .

I wish I could tell you how much I love you .

I wish I could show you how much I miss you .

No one cares .

But im here . loving you . with all my heart .

Im too ego . im a egomaniac .

Im sorry .

Im too stubborn . always .

Im sorry .

Im to depressed . but you never get bored .

Im sorry .

I always givin’ up on us . but you keep holding me .

Im sorry .

Im always crying . asked you for arguing . but you still there .

Patiently .

Im sorry .

dear , im sorry for all the things I’ve done to you .

im sorry for all the things I hurt you .

I failed . ya I know .

But I trust myself , I can make a move . changing myself for a better one . 

for you .

I love you .

Deeply .

You’re the most beautiful princess that I ever seen . im in love with all your things , you chick , your eyes , your nose , your lips . I love it – you said .

“ Siti Nurfatihah , I wanna be yours forever . be your husband . and have a kids with  you . have a kids that have the same eyes as you . I’ll marry you .  yes I will . someday . I promise you dear “ – you said .

“I’ll do anything for  you . anything . everything “ – you said .

Muhammad usamah bin saparudin ,

If you’re reading this . it’s a promise .

Inshaa Allah .