oh dear !

dear Allah , 

i wish i can be more stronger than yesterday .

i wish i can be more positive than before .

i wish i can be more ......

i wish i'll never cry anymore .

but its still happen . yes ,

again , again , and again .

i believe , 

everything happens with reasons .

in every painful there will come the happiness .

sometimes , 

there'll be a time for me to be thankful .

yes i know . i should .

dear Allah , 

what life could bring ?

seriously , i kindly curious ,

why this life was so hard ?

why there's a person who keep judging ?

why there's a pain after the pain ?

and it keeps struggling here .

i know , you have promised to your servant on this :

"Fainnamaalyusriyusra"

"there is always happiness in every difficulties"

i know .

keep moving ,

and trying to get into myself back .

yes . im trying ,

thank you Allah .

for everythings ,

for the love , 

for the happiness ,

for the feelings to be loved ,

the feeling to loving back .

thank you . 

Alhamdulillah :)